I don’t think anyone has actually asked me “are you okay?” and meant it. People ask that question and expect you to say “I’m fine” so they don’t have to deal with your problems. No one has ever asked me then stayed around so I can actually talk about how I feel.
Some of my friends see me as “tough”, it’s partly my fault because that’s how I wanted to be seen so that’s how I portrayed myself. To be honest it sucks because when you’re the “tough friend” no one ever asks you if you’re okay they just assume that you are or that you don’t want to talk about it.
I don’t want to have to say I’m upset, I want to have someone that can see it on my face and then they automatically know what’s wrong. I guess it’s too much to ask for. I just want someone to come up to me and say “what’s wrong?” rather than “are you okay?”
So I’ve decided that since no one has ever been this person for me that I should start being this person for other people. We should all try and help one another. If you ever feel like you need to talk you can email me @lovelilianaxo.gmail.com.
Love Liliana xo